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As if i ever write about anything else, lol.
I got my back brace, or guard, or whatever you call it.
So far, I'm optimistic about it. I don't wear it the whole time, as that will weaken the muscles and be counter productive. But like I said, seems to be helping. My mom was kind enough to buy it for me as an early birthday present. Not that exciting, she apologised, but I said that I find the idea of a pain-free Christmas very exciting indeed.

My life has been a tad sucky this week. As if I don't have enough on my plate, I've gone and injured two of my ribs at the back. Stabbing pain every time I breathe in. The chiropractor fixed it, but less than two hours later, it was out again. See - sucky.

I've decided, however, to go back in denial.
I was in denial for a long time, and since I've faced up to 'reality' (very over-rated) I'be been nothing but miserable. Hence, I've crossed back over into denial. What's wrong with that, anyway? People always say it like it's a bad thing.
So now I once again belive I will get better, live happily ever after and children by the dozen.
I think I'm a bi easier ot live with as a result. Much miore peppy.
To my way of thinking, it can't hurt. Much better for me to be thinking positive thoughts, and feeling happy, than to sit and feel sorry for myself about the inevitabilty of it all!
I have detailed fantasies where I am completely recovered. Able to walk normally, run, jump and dance. Wonderful. I can spend ages living in this fantasy world, because it makes me happy. What harm?

People must make up their minds. They accuse you of living in denial, not facing up to things, while simultaneously admonishing you to have faith, don't give up hope.

And, I've started eating properly again. I stuff my face with rubbish when I'm feeling miserable. But now I feel encouraged to feed myself the best, most nutricious foods that I can. Today is day 4. Yay for me! Didn't even join the others for pancakes at lunch.